Halloween

So, I started Halloween costumes back in July. The girls were going to be the good fairies from Sleeping Beauty and their cousin was going to be Aurora. Well I picked terrible material for Maylie's. It looked terrible it was a little small and after hearing me curse at it for 2 months May didn't want to wear it. So we came up with plan B 2 days before Halloween. I had some Strawberry Shortcake material with no real plan for it so we made a costume. The awesome hat is courtesy of my mom finding one for her. Maylie was super excited to be Strawberry so it all worked out. Then came the problem with Camilles. She would be in the stroller so she couldn't wear her wings and she had her helmet so she couldn't wear her hat which left her in a blue dress that would be covered with a blanket. So on Halloween I put this together. She's a Berrykin which you won't know unless you've seen the new version of Strawberry Shortcake. It worked out pretty perfect with her helmet and put her in nice warm Jammies.

Maylie had a blast trick or treating. The best was when we ran into another Strawberry and Maylie says, "Hey, you're like me! You better get some candy too. You look sooo wonderful." Camille was a trooper put up with riding in the stroller for a while but was done by the time Zach picked her up and took her back to her cousins.

Maylie is 3!

My baby is suddenly a little girl! Ahh! I just hate it and love it all at the same time. We had a fun birthday. She pretty much eat and sleeps My Little Pony and Strawberry Shortcake so she had a pony birthday. We decided instead of throwing a huge party like last year we would put the funds to use for balloons and streamers. We took pictures but seriously did not do it justice. So you will just have to take my word that the house was awesomely decorated and May loved it.

In the morning she opened her presents most of it My Little Pony stuff. In this picture she is sporting a new dress that Zach's mom sent her. She had a hard time blowing out her candles in the morning but the practice did her good because she got them later that night.

In the afternoon we picked Zach up at work and went to lunch and Nicklemannia. Her and Zach just love that place. I seriously just don't get it.
Anyway we had a little party Including Pin the cutie mark on the pony (it came with our decor).
I attempted to make a pull string pinata. It was a bust. The kids still had fun though and I think I figured out what I did wrong so next time I can make it work. The hands in the picture are Uncle Nates. He stepped in when the wire that was supposed to hold it up broke...I guess he was just lucky it was a pull string and not a hit with a bat pinata.After games we did presents. May was SO tired I felt kind of bad she didn't show much enthusiasm for what she was opening. Funny story though. Her Aunt Katherine (it was from the whole family but come on now we all knew who was the brains behind the operation) gave her a Strawberry Shortcake movie. I was trying to explain to Maylie who it was from and I think she thought I was saying she needed to give it to her. She was so worried. She started inching behind our TV stand and she hid it and just kept pushing it back farther and farther so it was hidden. And then after cake was over my mom said she had gotten out and kept saying, "Is this mine?" "Can I keep this?" So funny. She also got an easel from my mom and dad which she loves. I think trees everywhere are legging out a sigh of relief since we don't go through a ton of paper everyday for all her drawings. Now she has a white board she can draw then erase.

My favorite part was the cake. Which if it weren't for the super talented Caytee Wankier's help would have been a muddled up mess with a pony on top. It was such a good learning experience. I loved it and Maylie was so excited.
She LOVES singing happy birthday. She has some play cakes that she will always set up for a party and then sing happy birthday to whoever she decides to sing to. So I think when everyone was singing it to her she was ecstatic. She was even singing along. Overall I think she had a fun birthday but hated the party. She is definitely a kiddo that likes the calm and small groups. Next year we may have to find some other fun way to celebrate.
She had her check up she has jumped from the 10th percentile in weight to the 40th. She is getting cut off from her whole milk though both in quantity and in fat so it'll be interesting to see if she stays in the 40th. She screamed the entire time at the doctor's it was so sad.

Anyway I'm so lucky to have her and I am thankful for everyday I get to spend with her. She is such a sweetheart (with a side of stubbornness and she wouldn't be her father's daughter if it weren't so). She is so smart and hilarious I get such a kick out of her. Love you May May!

7 Months

Camille is 7 months! She can roll over from her stomach to her back going one way. Apparently in all things she is not an ambiturner. She is doing awesome on sitting up by herself. She does great as long as she is focused straight ahead of her but when she starts turning she gets wobbly. Her primary goal in life seems to be to get everything possible in her mouth. She especially loves paper and wrappers.

She loved baby food at first but in the past week or so seems to have developed an aversion to everything except cereal. I've been making my own baby food so perhaps my terrible cooking is carrying over into simple things like steaming veggies and blending them.

She loves to be held but not necessarily cuddled. She has to see what's going on around her. She seems to be a little shy when people start talking to her she will bury her head in your shoulder and then turn to look at them again and then repeat. It's too cute.

She has given up the binky. She basically just likes to have it so she can chew on it. She rarely sucks on it anymore. I'm kind of glad but it did make bedtime so much easier.
She has had her helmet on for a few weeks. She has to wear it 23 hours a day and she gets an hour off so we can wash it and it can dry (seriously washing it does not good it's stinky no matter what). She has already had 2 sore spots so far so she has had a few days out of it so they could heal. She has a hard time sleeping it. However there is already a noticeable difference in her head and she is turning it both ways with no problem so it's doing what it is supposed to. I just hope this is the last big thing the poor girl has to deal with.

Her favorite person in the whole world is Maylie. Maylie can make her laugh when no one else can. She especially loves watching Maylie jump up and down in cracks her up every time. They are just too cute together. It's been so fun seeing them interact. Maylie will sing her songs when she is sad. When Camille wakes up from her naps Maylie makes sure I go and get her right away. No lingering there is too much to do.

She is just adorable. She seems to have just come alive within the past few months. I think she has just been so miserable but she is getting past it and smiling, laughing, and interested with the world around her. It just makes me feel all fuzzy and warm (you know the feeling closely followed by mommy happy tears).

Summer

Can you believe it's almost September? Goodness summer sure went by fast! We've had tons of fun this summer here is what we've been up to in no particular order... We've been swimming lots and jumping on the tramp in the evenings when it's cool. We've spent lots of time with friends and at the park too.

We went to the Zoo with my mom. Maylie was terrified of the dinosaurs and didn't really want much to do with anything. She loved the carousal, elephants and the pizza. Okay seriously the dinosaurs were lame. Why even spend the money on them?

I have very few pictures with my girls because I'm always behind the camera and there even fewer that I like but this one turned out really cute.
Camille is now 5 months I just want to remind you all what she looked like when we brought her home around 1 month
And this is our cute chunky little girl now. Can you believe it?

She had her 4 month check up 2 weeks early but even without the extra 2 weeks she was in the 85th percentile for her weight of babies born at 31 weeks. For a normal 4 month old she was not even on the chart though.

She has started to smile although you really have to work for it. She has started to take a little bit of an interest in toys which has made her less fussy in general I think. I think a lot of her fussiness comes from the fact that she is a cat napper. She rarely takes a nap longer than 15 mins. She's a great sleeper at night though. She is still in a little bed by our bed. She doesn't sleep well in her crib and I'll be honest I might cry when I actually move her out. She loves to stare at the fan and can usually cure her of anything that might be bothering her. She cut her first tooth about a week ago but it was her bottom canine which is weird. She loves to talk. If you talk to her she will just coo and grunt back it's the cutest thing.

She has been going to physical therapy. She won't turn her head to the left. The resulting effect is she has a really misshapen head. She will be getting a helmet towards the end of September. Poor girl just can't get a break!

We had her blessing and it turned out really nice. Thanks to everyone who made their way out to our house to come. I love this picture. We are constantly trying to get May to look at the camera and when she is we are all looking somewhere else.

Back to the 4th of July (like I said no particular order). Zach went in late to go the the parade with us and then got off early so we could play a little. He played soccer and catch with May she loved it. I'm so grateful Zach has a job but I wish he had more time at home to do stuff like this.
Zach had is 25th birthday. Wow we are getting to be so old. However old he is this picture will attest that he is still just a kid at heart. We've had lots of fun having Nerf wars. He took his birthday off and we went and did some family sealings at the temple. It was really special. Then that afternoon we went to Nickelmannia. It's Zach's and Maylies favorite place. Maylie loves DDR.
In June we went to a Princess Festival down at thanksgiving point. May loved it. I thought it was adorable too. It has like the fairy tale princesses but not the commercialism of disney princesses and the festival has their own princesses who do cool stuff and not wait for princes to come save them. I love this picture she May looks like she is just a little southern belle or something. It's cute.
May is so darn beautiful and just as smart. We are still working on potty training, she went all day yesterday with no accidents woot! This afternoon however she has decided she wants her diaper back on. Oh well it'll happen one day. I switched her to cloth diapers and she hates them. I'm hoping it will encourage her to wear her undies.

It seems like she has been picking up on church things a lot more and I love it. When she sees a picture of the temple she'll say "Look mama, a temple, I'm going there someday." and when she sees a picture of the prophet she says, "It's the prophet he knows the way!" So funny. She still won't go to nursery and Zach teaches the sunbeams so it's made the last 2 hours a bit difficult- if I only I had 4 hands! She will go sit in Zach's class sometimes and she does a little bit better so I wonder if once she is in sunbeams she won't have such a hard time.

She has been obsessed with My Little Pony these days which I think is good. Anything to give us a break from princesses ;)! She also really wants to play soccer and go to school.

Potty Training

Maylie had the funniest moment this morning. I'm sure reading it will not be as funny because you can not watch my daughter prancing up and down the hallway but I just had to record it. We are still working on potty training but in the last week May has made leaps and bounds. She wears her underwear for about half the day.

So this morning she had her underwear on and she had an accident on the couch. She told me that she still needed to go potty though. So I took her upstairs sat her on her potty with a book and told her I would be right back. A couple minutes later she comes squealing with excitement out of the bathroom. "Mommy I peed in the potty! It's a BIG one. Mommy come upstairs and see. It's BIG!" I can not even explain how excited she was and she just kept telling me. "Mommy it's a BIG pee!"

I walked upstairs not expecting there to be anything in there because I had just cleaned up a huge accident there was no way she had anything left in her. I was right there was no pee but she had an enormous poo in her little potty. This is the first time she has gone number 2 in the potty so I was just as excited as she was. I told her at this point she didn't pee she pooed and we took care of it washed our hands and I gave her a surprise.

Then I let her call Zach. "Dada I went a big poo in the potty. It was so BIG I got a big surprise." And all morning she's been talking about her BIG poo. Too funny.

2 & 3 months

Camille is 3 months can you believe it? The long NICU days are long behind us and she's sure proving she can grow up just as fast as her big sister has. Her adjusted age is 1 month though and she acts more like a 1 month old than she does a 3 month old. She is starting to interact with things around her like you can tell she is interested at things she is looking at and she is startled by noises. When Maylie talks to her her eyes get really big. It's so funny. She is also awake for maybe an hour or so during the day (apart from the time that she is eating and pooping). She likes to be held and I wish I could hold her all day but unfortunately she spends most of her time in her bed. She's a really good baby though. Even when she is fussy it's like she is fussy but she does it quietly because she feels bad being fussy. Anyway she's a doll.

Here is her and her great-great grandmother. She came to our house to see her and I forgot to take a picture and couldn't believe it. So we went braved the kids and went to great-great grandma's birthday party so we could snap one. I don't think a lot of people have a great-great alive so I think it's pretty special.This is her- "'I'm about to spit up all over you" face. Here is cute Maylie. She looks kind of like a robot in this picture but for some reason I decided to take pictures of her while she was eating and this was the only one where she wasn't sucking the food out of the bowl. I tell ya I have the best kids. Maylie is such a help. When Camille was born we were having to put her in time out a lot but nowadays she is such a good listener and does what we ask usually the first time and if not then before we count to 3 :). The only exception is when it's time to leave her cousin Kamrie. She gets so sad and throws a fit. Her hair is long enough for back pig tails which honestly I'm in love with. Her imagination is so much fun. It cracks me up the things she thinks of and the little adventures we go on.

So 2 kids has not been as bad as I was expecting- which is good because I think I was expecting the worse. I'm still terrified to take both of them to get groceries. Our first experience "out" was at the aviary. And everything was going fine and I was thinking, "taking two kids out isn't as bad as I thought." ...until it was time to feed Camille. I went and found a bench away from everyone and I sat Maylie next to me with a handi-snack. Camille still can't eat well under a blanket so I'm not as covered as I probably should be when I feed her-I'm over it- but I'm sure the people around me aren't. Anyway so I'm a bit indecent and this peacock comes up and see's that Maylie has food and he keeps inching closer and closer. Maylie starts crying and trying to climb over me to the other side of the bench. I'm asking her what's wrong but between her crying and her full mouth I can't figure out what she's saying. I finally figure it out probably exposing myself like 10 times because I'm trying not to drop either of my children. I get May set up in the stroller hoping it would close her off from the problem causing bird but he just came over to the other side and kept inching closer and closer and would not be shooed. May is terrified and has a total melt down- Camille is crying because she's trying to eat and her food source keeps getting ripped from her mouth. And I'm sure the 8 year old boy who walked by at this point is scared for life because he saw my boob. So I close up the milk shop buckle Camille in and we basically sprint to the exit. I turned on the dvd player in the car and finished feeding Camille in there and then we went home all very frazzled.

None of our following trips to various places have been bad at all but I'm still scared. You can't just leave the store when you have a cart full of groceries so what do you do if a peacock is wandering wal-mart and decides he wants your kids lunch?

Some Thoughts

1. How did anyone learn how to do anything before google? Seriously I never ever would've known that there were so many ways to kill ants, make meatloaf, and use fabric scraps.

2. Speaking of google- yuck. I was putting together an FHE for tonight and needed a picture of a chick. Apparently that's a bad thing to google image. I did find a chick but also saw the nastiest picture of a fat lady (I mean whale fat and probably can't move) naked blah. Why does that even come up and who thinks of that coming up when they want a picture of a cute fluffy yellow chick?

3.I hate Wal-Marts 1 hour photo. The pictures are like looking at someone with too much make-up on only it's the whole photo.

4. I really really want to paint May's room and the playroom. The neutral brown color does not do the bright home decor any favors.

5. I weighed myself today. I'm 13 pounds heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight- no wonder I'm busting out of my pants. It's crazy that I was pregnant longer and had a bigger baby the first time around but weighed less than I did before I was pregnant and this time around gained more. Although I'm not so sure that most of that was not from eating peanut butter eggs during Easter. I need to find an exercise I like to do. I would love to try Zumba but that would require a baby sitter which makes things too complicated for right now. I'm thinking maybe jump roping!

6. I've had 2 facebook friends in the past 2 months put up labor updates in their status updates. LABOR updates? As in, "I'm now dilated to an 8." How are they doing this? Shouldn't they be busy with...I dunno...birthing a baby!?!

7. Parks and Rec has surpassed the office for my favorite show. And I was so excited for the Will Ferrel guest star and it was definitely not all it was cracked up to be. Too bad. I'm voting for Jim Carrey as the next boss but Zach says he heard it was Will Arnett which could be pretty funny too. If it's Raymond I quit I'm not watching he drives me too crazy.

8. My wonderful husband has been working so hard on our lawn and it still looks terrible. Zach says I have to be patient-I hate being patient.

9. How do you wash a newborns front portion of neck? It is the stinkiest part of them and the hardest to get at. Probably that's why it's the stinkiest part.

10. I am loving this nice weather. Seriously why does winter ever have to come?

The Girls

What a perfect smile in this picture. This my friends only comes along once in a thousand pictures. Love this picture. I didn't realize I didn't put shoes on her until I was looking at them in photo shop but I actually really like her barefoot-she's always barefoot anyway!

Sweet Camille.

If you don't think these are the cutest little feet in the world (aside from your own children's of course) I will fight you.

I know this looks suspiciously like they are pretending to be Nazi's but I promise they aren't. May was copying everything Camille did with her hands. It was so cute.

Camille was laying down so May had to lay down with her too. Shortly after this picture she ran and got her pillow and blanket so they could match.

This is the first time May got to hold Camille. She was so excited. We took May with us to the hospital to pick Camille up when I walked out the NICU door she was sitting right there and she got the hugest smile on her face "Baby Sister!"

May adores her. She loves to hold her and is always asking Camille if she wants something. We've had to go to a lot of doctors appointments and May is just so protective and so concerned it just makes me smile. It is funny though when I'm holding Camille or feeding her and May wants me to come play she tells me it's time for baby to take a nap. So funny.

Camille is just a little sweetheart. She hardly cries at all-even when she's hungry! I've put her right by our bed at night and the only reason I know she's awake is she starts snorting trying to suck on her hands.

I'm so grateful for both my little girls and their wonderful Daddy!

Easter Dresses

Matching outfits are pretty fun, even when they aren't seen together. Neither daughter was terribly coopertive with these pictures. Maylie would not look at the camera and Camille kept putting her hands in front of her face, they must be sisters!

3 weeks

I'm sure you will get tired of these updates but this is as close to journaling as I get so it must be done. Camille made some huge strides this week. She had her first bottle. She is taking 4 feedings orally every 24 hours. She is out of her isolette and in a regular crib. She reached 4 lbs woot! She had her first bath. They give them swaddle baths- I wish I had known what this was when May was a newborn it was great! She seems like such a sweet natured baby but I'm not there all the time so maybe she's super fussy when I'm gone. Either way she's adorable. We've had our primary nurses for most of the week which I gotta say makes all the difference in the world. I hate getting an obnoxious nurse. Story time. I thought that I would make a video for May showing where we go to see Camille how we wash our hands at the sink. Camille's room at the hospital, the milk that I pump at home and take there and then show her Camille in her crib and one of us holding her. I thought it was such a good idea and you know thought, "Wow, good job mom." Our nurse sent home a coloring book with us after we told her what we were doing. Well I showed May the video and she loved it-but then I showed her the coloring book. In the coloring book it shows a little girl washing her hands at the sink-just like dada did. Going to the babies room at the hospital-just like mama did and holding the baby just like we both did. After that she started saying how she wanted to go to the doctors and wash her hands and see baby Camille. So I told her, no I'm sorry you can't go. So then she started saying how we needed to go to the doctor and wake baby Camille up and bring her home. So I had to tell her again no, I'm sorry you can't go. She was SO heartbroken. It was the saddest thing ever. So then I felt like the worst mom in the world for ruining her sweet ignorance. Poor girl. It's just a testament though about how excited I think she'll be when Camille actually gets to come home.

2 weeks

I love love love my two little girls. They are such sweethearts and I feel so blessed to have them in our family. I can't believe my baby is already 2 weeks old-at the same time I feel like it's been a life time of being at the NICU all the time. It's been so hard for me to have someone tell me when I can hold my baby and how long I can hold her. And knowing that it's the time I can hold her and having to wait until a nurse gets a second to come get her out for me. It's frustrating. I'm glad I get to at least hold her though because I know some babies can't be touched at all for a while.

Her isolate. Stretching out. She is usually all snuggled and tucked into that little bed thing at the bottom. The orange tube in her nose is the feeding tube and then everything else on her is just measuring her heart rate and oxygen. Her cute little feet. I was looking at some newborn size shoes someone gave us when May was born and I laughed because Camille would be able to fit 4 of her size feet in one shoe.I adore this picture. I was trying to wake her up so she could try to eat. We've been doing non-nutritive breast feeding for about a week (I pump before she tries to eat so she doesn't actually get anything). But Saturday they let me try nursing her for real. She did ok the first time but was just really sleepy. Yesterday though she ate like a champ and even burped. Go Camille! The nurses say that around 36 weeks (the measure in gestational age at not her actual age) most babies kind of stop eating because they go through a huge growth spurt and just want to sleep. Hopefully she keeps up the good eating.

Zach, the proud Dad. He is so sweet with her I just love it. This is only the second time he has gotten to hold her. She looks big to me in these pictures but when you are holding her you feel like you're going to lose her or break her because she's so small.

We are doing well. Our whole family is exhausted in every form of the word but we have lots of good people taking care of us. My mom and sister-in-law have been watching May. I don't think she's minded too much she loves going to play with her cousins and to see grandma and grandpa. I am so impressed with our ward and how great they have been when most of the people don't even know us. It's been really nice. Also, I have been so thankful for all the positive little messages our friends have sent our way. I must shout out to Caytee (and Preston but I'm sure it was mostly Caytee). She made the cutest little things for Camille and she brought us a dinner, and cookies, and drove it all the way up from Provo. Thanks Caytee! One day I will be super awesome like her. This whole experience has made me want to be more Christlike and more concerned about others. Thank you to everyone who has been such a good example to me and how I should strive to be these past two weeks. I love you so much for it!

Camille

We had our baby. Camille was 8 1/2 weeks early. I started having contractions Saturday night and I was timing them but they were all short and very sporadic. I went to bed and woke up a few times because of contractions so I called the OB in the morning and she said it sounded like I was having a lot and they were close together so I should go into labor and delivery. The thought really had not crossed my mind that I was actually in labor I just thought it was false labor. I had an epidural from the start of my contractions with May so I really had no idea. Anyway, I told Zach just to go to church and teach his lesson and when he got back we could head to the hospital and I could get checked out. By the time he got home around 12 I was in so much pain and having constant contractions. So we headed to the hospital we got there at about 12:40 they took me in and checked me and I was dilated to a 10. Camille Gwen Scholes was born at 1:10pm 3lbs 4oz 15 inches long. We didn't really get to see her for a while they took her right away through a window into the NICU. P.S. about the labor- Although doing it "natural" was oh so painful I would take it over a C-section any day. I can't believe how much faster the recovery was and how great I felt after the labor was over. She is doing really well so far. She is breathing on her own except for some caffeine because she forgets to breath. She is taking her feedings through a tube but is handling them well so far. (May I just mention I feel like a cow milking myself every 2-3 hours. Zach thinks it's funny too.) She'll be in the NICU for about 8 weeks. I've gotten to hold her twice and both times have just been great. She is such a doll. I can't wait for her to come home. It's so funny how she shouldn't even be here yet and I haven't had her home at all but there is suddenly this huge piece that is missing at our house. Every nurse and doctor we've seen has told us that she is feisty and that that is a good personality to have in the NICU. I will be interested to see if she keeps that personality as she grows up.

May won't be able to see her until she comes home. We've shown her pictures but she thinks they are "baby May May". She has been such a trooper about being dropped off and left so much. I do think she realizes something is going on and I think she's acting out a little bit because of it. Hopefully once we are on a bit of a schedule she'll do a little better. And I'm sure as soon as she sees Camille she is just going to love her and be oh so excited. We've gotten some big sister books at the library and she loves to look through them and point to the older girls and call them May May and then point out the baby sister.

We have had such great support from our family and our ward. It's going to be a long 8 weeks (Actually we are almost down to 7 wahoo!) but I think we're going to be just fine just because we have such a strong support system. I feel so blessed and so greatful to Heavenly Father for giving us such amazing people to look out for us. I am also greatful to him for how well Camille is doing and I know she's being watched over and helped along her way.

May's Darling Dada

First of all, can I just say I am quite content with life. Seriously I cannot think of any other way I could possibly be more blessed...her is my beautiful little girl to prove it! When May was born she was a total Daddy's girl. She would be so good for him and still cry and cry for me. Somewhere a long the way she changed to a Mama's girl but that didn't last long because Dad is definitely the favorite.

My favorite part of the day is when the garage door opens and May jumps up from whatever she's doing and starts yelling, "Dada! Dada!" and she does her little running in place thing that she does when she gets excited. Then she stands there at the door and as soon as he walks in she runs to give him a huge hug. It's the most adorable thing ever.

Zach has always been a good Dad but I think he was a little lost in the newborn-baby stage. I tell you though he shines with May. It is just so cute to see them together. He'll chase her around for tickles, play princess with her (he will even put on the tiara-what a guy), does puzzles, and always gives her lots of snuggles.


Here is one of May's favorite games- "Hello-Goodbye" which Zach will play with her until she gets bored-which is a really long time!

We found an old cowboy hat of mine and Zach has been teaching her to say, "Reckon so." and "Get along pardner." The two walk around the house like a couple of old time Sheriff's. Cracks me up.
First driving lessons at Nicklemannia.

May letting Dada have a turn on the car-she was pushing him because he wasn't going fast enough.

Anyways, I just love these two together. I love when I'm doing something and I get to hear them giggling uncontrolably from the other room. I love seeing them snuggle up in the blanket together for a movie. I just I love how much May loves her Dad and how much he loves her. I hope they always keep a close relationship.

The pregnancy is still going..well it's just going. Only 2 1/2 more months! I finally have a big enough belly that people who don't know I'm pregnant know I'm pregnant not just fat. It's a comforting feeling. But I don't think I was this big with May until the end of month 8 so I'm not sure where else this baby is going to go. I need to get some pictures taken. I have none from the first pregnancy and I'm so sad I don't. I just need to remember to take them when I don't look like I haven't showered or slept for days.

My back pain is still at a high but it's managable. I've been having dizzy/lightheaded spells. I think baby is just sitting on something like an artery or a nerve or something and thats why I'm getting them. My doctor wants me to go see a neuroligist next week though. I don't know if I'm going to go. I don't think it's neurological and I don't want to go to this doctor who will make up a problem just so she can feel like she can do something to "solve" it. I dunno we'll see.